Provera, Period, and Clomid! Oh, My!

This week started off with another disappointment, but today Dr. Smith turned it around. Monday, I called the doctor after unsuccessfully having my period on my own again. I faxed the doc my temperature chart, and he asked me to take a home pregnancy test. Despite the fact that my blood work did not show signs of ovulation four weeks ago, my temperature chart looked like I may have been pregnant. Although it was disappointing to take another negative pregnancy test, it wasn't as heartbreaking as others I've taken. I wasn't letting myself get too excited about anything, because I know my body well enough to know I was not pregnant. Because it was negative, the doctor requested my husband and I come in today for a follow-up. I made my husband promise he would help me be tough and press the issue that enough was enough, and it was time to try an actual treatment. I was prepared to put on my big girl pants and threaten to seek another doctor. But, all of that was unnecessary. Dr. Smith began by saying that, while he had hoped I would ovulate on my own, it wasn't looking like my body would. And, that he wanted me to take Provera (a period-inducing pill) for 10 days to shed the lining in the uterus and have a period. After I actually start my period, I am to fax my temperature chart, and he will tell me when to start Clomid. I think my heart literally skipped a beat when he said the word! Clomid is often the first step in infertility treatment, but Dr. Smith is an advocate for balancing the body's natural hormones before trying any ovulation stimulators. I actually agree with him. He has given my body the best chance at not only conceiving, but staying pregnant, and delivering a healthy baby. The side-effects, besides the possible lack of cervical mucus I mentioned before, are hot flashes and night sweats. Provera makes me crazy hormonal, and I imagine Clomid will as well, so I have pre-apologized to my husband for my possibly crazy, hormonal behavior. Also, Clomid increases the chance of twins. I wouldn't mind twins actually. Since we don't have any kids now, it's not like we'd know the difference in the lack of sleep from one baby versus two babies. Besides, built-in playmates sounds pretty good to me. I think my husband is less sold on the idea of twins, but he is super excited to be taking another step forward toward making a baby. I feel conflicted about starting Clomid. On the one hand, this is exactly what I want. On the other, I worry that I will get crushed if it doesn't work. But, I will NEVER give up. I believe that I will be a mother. I believe I will carry a child. And, this is just step-one in making my body cooperate. There will not be much to report over the next three weeks as I will be taking Provera and having a period. But, I am asking that my readers will keep my husband and I in their prayers for the road ahead. I am guessing we will start Clomid in the middle of November. During that time, the husband and I will be on a strict sex schedule (I doubt he'll complain), and wait to see if it worked. Speaking of the sex schedule, after Dr. Smith once again gave us the best doctors orders of sex every other day, I thought of a very important question: Are there any positions that help with fertility? Dr. Smith said, "don't believe any of that." Fertility is different for each person, and each egg is different each ovulation cycle. But, one thing remains the same, if the sperm can get to the egg, pregnancy will occur. There isn't a position that can help that, just our bodies doing what it does naturally, or in our case with the help of Clomid.